I am a stay at home mother of three children. I am very proactive to their academics and overall health. My greatest wish is that they are healthy, spiritual and always do some charity for the world.
But I am not happy. I hate making all the decisions all the time and being in constant crisis management. My husband travels a lot and I am alone to handle all. He is a great father but I do not know if it is enough for me. I have been in diapers for 12 years. I quit a big career to raise a family and to be support for my husband's career. I loved being a mom with my first two. When my second child was off to full time school, I was ready to be out in the world but I got pregnant. We planned the other two kids to the day. I feel some higher power wanted me to have a third. My boy is very charming but this is so hard.
Now when I have any free time, I sit in front of the computer and tv. I do not get time to go out by myself much. I do not want to be with the children unless I am feeding, running to them to sports or music classes or helping them with homework. I am irritated a lot. I truly believed if I worked hard, I would be happy. Help! I am drowning.