For some reason, I think of Imbolc as the first warm-up and stretch as we head toward spring. It's when I want to start planning a list of what seeds I want to plant and where, etc. I start looking for early sales on supplies and I look longingly at my yard and think of all the wonderful clean up projects I can get started.
But here's something that came to me yesterday... without getting too personal, I've made the decision not to have children and got my tubes tied. I'm happy with this decision and part of my inner counseling with the God and Goddess was this: "I give my fertility back to you so that you may use it for the earth. May the life I may have given go back into the earth to grow and be plentiful."
It put a new spin in my mind on things like Ostara and Beltane when our main thoughts go toward reproduction, not just human, of course, but of all nature. I didn't want to give the impression that I was throwing this gift back in the face of the Universe, but maybe hoping it could be seen as an energetic recycling.
I have no regrets, it just got me to thinking... I feel a special bond for some reason with Imbolc and Brigid, and while I didn't intentionally plan it so close to the holiday, I felt a certain comfort knowing that she was so near to hear my thoughts and keep the doctor's hands steady.
Anyway, again, just my thoughts...
