This Thanksgiving is for sure not gonna be all that great.
My sweetheart's been having some hellacious back pain. The doctor did a pile of tests and there really isn't anything they can do... it is degenerative disc disease. He's even using a cane because he can't even straighten up, and he's in so much pain he can't do his job. They just told him he had to retire. I do not make enough to get us by, and we are losing our insurance. I don't know what we're going to do. And he is feeling awful about it all. I do know how lousy it must feel to him. We talked a bit and he thanked me for not getting all upset and negative and going into the oh-God-what-are-we-gonna-do mode� Well, I am for sure feeling that and then some now and I know I will in the future. I am writing it out in my journal because I have to let it out someplace when that awful panicky feeling gets ahold of me, but I am going to be, I have to be, strong and positive for my Loved One. He is what matters. I told him that I love him and we�ll get by, and he acted so very grateful, and part of me is going, What the @#!* did you think I�d do? Leave? Ain�t nuthin gonna make me do that. We are a team... for better or for worse. It's just that now the for worse is for sure kicking in.
I just looked in my email and there was a promotional whatever from AARP, wanting me to donate money to help "impoverished seniors"... I don't think so� Sorry, I thought, No can do, because that is going to be us, and very soon, too! So I hit my delete button without a qualm.