hi everyone,
I have decided once and for all to face my self esteem and body image issues. I searched the net for hours to find an online resource to help me with this and this one looked the best.
I have recently lost 5 kg but I battle with food. I can't stop thinking about it and I feel guilty most of the time. I just have no concept of what size I actually am, I spend ages staring at myself in the mirror and trying to figure out if I'm fat.
I work out a lot which makes me feel fantastic, but I want more of these good feelings in my life. On new years eve I had a massive fight with my boyfriend where I really took a lot of my bad feelings out on him. I can't tell the difference between what is 'his fault' and what is 'my fault', because he is a jokey kind of guy and sometimes teases me, which can get make me feel bad sometimes. I don't want to put him, or my friends, through hell any more because of the way I feel about myself.
I know that there are issues from childhood, self hate and bullying and all sorts, that I am going to have to deal with.
I just wanted to get that out and ask u guys for your stories of how you feel about yourselves!! because I really want to start loving myself completely!!!!
:) xx
Last edited by fi_112; 01/05/09 12:32 AM.