I am not proud of my depression and social awkwardness. It doesn't matter that it's not my fault...I always expect better of myself, and then get extremely disappointed in me when I have low times or episodes. I let myself get really off track for a long time after when it happens.
Jilly, I don't know if we are allowed to comment on others, so if i'm out of place, just tell me so.
But rather than focusing on your depression and social problems, maybe say that you are not proud of how you handle them.
To me, saying that you are not proud of your depression is like saying you are not proud of your cancer. Both are illnesses that are beyond your control. What IS in your control is whether you seek treatment (either through medication or counseling) that matters. In other words - don't beat yourself up over matters that are not under your control.
OK - now for me;
1. I am not proud of the fact that I avoid confrontation until I get to the point that I explode.
2. I am not proud of the fact that I let my husband take on so much while I hide because of my Depression.
3. I am not proud of the fact that I have gained back so much of my weight that I lost from my gastric bypass.
4. I am not proud of the fact that I have completely given up on physical therapy and exercise.
5. I am not proud of the fact that I hate my body, and I am scared it is going to rub off on my daughter one day.