You're right that it's there relationship, but my ds is only 9 and very sensitive. He asked me the other day just to get his dad to leave him alone and it broke my heart. My other 3 kids are younger, the youngest 2 are under 2, so it make it even harder with them.
What exactly did your "H" say or do to DS? Have you started to keep a JOURNAL? I suggest you do. Dates/times and the story to go with it. But please keep the journal somewhere where "H" won't find it. I found keep a journal helped me keep track of what was happening. See clearer. See a cycle. MY "H" cycled.... there was a period of GOOD, where he'd be loving and caring and playful. Then you can see it start building slowly.... and then finally the outburst. Now, I used to keep a journal at the very begining of our relationship and marriage. And the outbursts were all "explainable" there was always a reason to the madness. And since the outbursts happened infrequently at that time... the LULL period.. was great. Soothing. It would fade the memory of the outburst quickly. However, as the years progressed, so did the cycle. He cycled quicker. To the point in the end where he was constantly angry.
Keep a journal. Good for your peace of mind to keep the facts straight because when they GAS LIGHT you.. you'll start thinkin your nuts and bolts arn't tightened down. It's called Crazy Making. We start questioning our own sanity and that.. is by design. They can't possibly be in the wrong... its always us.. or someone else. They don't take responsibility. Keeping a journal will help alleviate you questioning yourself. AND... can be used in a court of law at a later date if needed.
Next...you children. Look, your S9 is already asking you to do something about it. He looks up to you to protect him. Physically and emotionally. You are his HERO. You still have the GODDESS status at this point. I'll tell you what? I'd choose my CHILDREN over H any day of the week.
YOU need to make some decisons here. You need to sort out your feelings and thoughts and you need help. Since you're on here looking for answers the process has already started. Are you able to go talk to a THERAPIST or COUNSELOR who can help you sort this out for you? Have you contacted your family and would they be of any use to you? You need to tell someone and confide in someone. A friend???? It helps bouncing off ideas off others. We don't feel so alone in the world and a light appears at the end of the tunnel faster.
If your H is emotionally or verbally abusing your children it has got to stop. Stand up to him and tell him that it is unacceptable behavior, don't let him snow you over with he's trying to make a man out of S9... and toughen him up. Was that how he was raised? and was everything in his childhood rosie??? I don't think so. Controlling Narcisstic behavior was learned somehwere. And if you look into his childhood.. I'd be you'd find that he's been imprinted by one or both of his parents.
Point is... do you want your son to think H's behavior is good behavior.. the right way to act???
I'm teaching my children GOOD CHOICE/BAD CHOICE.. Your choice. And if they choose to make a bad choice... well they will get consequences of those choices. Your "H" is behaving like an overgrown BULLY...he hasn't grown out of us teen angst stage... he might never. One thing is for sure... If you don't bust a move.. it will continue.
Granma said:
"If you keep doing what you've always done.. you will continue to get what you always got."
She also said:
If it looks like a dog, smells like a dog, and has fleas, it's a dog.