I'm I afriad to change? Maybe change is good? I don't have a maternal instinct. I hated dolls and girly stuff all my life. Maybe, I am afraid of my womanhood. Maybe, I don't embrace it. I never much liked being a girl or a kid.
It's all every confusing. I want a happy life with my husband. I want to be the joy of his life and he mine. Isn't family what carries us through life?
I really believe he needs kids. I'm struggling.
Family is wonderful...as
you define it. A friend of mine calls biological ties a "genetic blind date": sometimes you'll get along with these folks, sometimes you won't. Chosen family (spouses, friends) can be so much better in many ways.
Remember too, that inner resources carry us through life. A life of the mind...ideas, books, music, etc., can be wonderful right up until we leave this existence, for most people. Works for people with or without kids, and even those without spouses.
Now, as to what
he needs...that's a different kettle of fish. Please get a counsellor involved at this stage of the game, GGD. And in the meantime, be extra kind and gentle to yourself; your hormones are going nuts right now.
Best to you,
Elise