Hi Holly,
It sounds like you have so much to offer someone. Whoever you do end up with will be blessed with your BIG heart
Regarding wealth: You've used visualization before. It's a great way to help you experience how YOU personally would respond to it. The thing with visualization is that you are putting who you already are, you desires and your personal sense of purpose into the equation. It really then isn't so much of an unknown.
Have you ever considered using visualization and imagining yourself with what you consider to be wealth? How would you have made this money? What would your life look like? How would you feel? What would you want to do with this money?
In other ways, it would be interesting to see how you would view your own success and assume those same thoughts and attitudes.
I have some big dreams regarding charity. I find myself visualizing what my life will be like, how I will conduct myself and what my thoughts would be like when I do achieve it. It's highly motivating and uplifting.
Another great thing is that as I dream about it, ideas of how to make it happen start coming to me.