Missuz,my heart goes out to u, i lost a baby 41yrs ago she did live for 3 hours after she was born, i never saw her but i buried her.i hope u can get some kind of therapy, talking about is a good thing.I still have trouble with getting thru her birthday,n holidays,i forever think of her. its your grief, you lost part of you,n its o.k to talk talk talk as much as u need to.don't let anyone take that away from u. talking is healing even if yr still talking about it 41yrs from now, God bless u Missuz