Biscuitgirl - I quite agree with you on the unrealistic media, and worldwide (especially in the USA) focus on young, taut, hardbodies. Unfortunately, that will probaly never change...it is ridiculous for 90% of adult women to think that we should look like that. I am so sorry that your reality is so difficult for you. I really hope, though, that you will continue to do as you are doing, and take good care of yourself, including if possible maybe dance classes, or yoga, pilates, or some form of enjoyable activity that will put you in touch with your body. It is amazing how good it feels just to know that you are working your muscles, and by doing it in a way that is fun, you will also feel energized, and perhaps, even be pleasantly surprised by how your body responds. I also hope that if you are truly distressed by this, that you will seek help with maybe a counselor - i know from very personal experience how depression can make even easy tasks seem too difficult to attempt, and the whole world can seem to be untouchable, and happiness unattainable. Just remember that the world view is also causing our beautiful young girls and women to feel that they have to be perfect as well - which results in all sorts of problems. Look at how the celebrities have kind of morphed into each other - they all look frighteningly alike! Maybe they all have the same plastic surgeon!! How sad that even these young natural beauties wind up with botox, silicone, and emplants of all types in an effort to appease the very same appetites that you refer to. Please don't allow that very narrow unforgiving perspective distort your own self image.