It was late last night, almost this morning, and Sean and I were catching up on the phone. We hadn't spoken in a while, and it was so wonderful to be lying on my cozy bed after my rough week, listening to his melodic voice, when ...
"Hello? HELLOOOO?"
I feel asleep on him! � dooming myself to forever be known as "The Not-Quite Girlfriend Who Fell Asleep on Me."
My bad.
I apologized, of course. But I don't know if this will be the end of it. I don't really know if Sean (the single dad I see from time to time) is the kind of guy who is keeping a mental ledger of all my misdeeds only to one day throw them in my face when we have a tiff that has nothing to do with my "sleep issue" or any other past mistake. We've never gone there, and I don't want to go there with him ... or anyone.
But I know a lot of people who do bring up past wrong-doings over and over and over. I don't understand that type of thinking. I guess it has something to do with power and control, or needing to be right, or maybe even contempt � I don't understand any of those, either, in a relationship with someone you say you love � or maybe an issue with forgiveness (or the lack of it), and the ability to move on.
Reminding someone of his mistakes every time you fight just pushes him away. Then perhaps one day he'll be exercising his ability to move on.
Hey, it's called the "past" because it's over. Put it to rest already.
Do you keep track of all the wrong-doings of a lover and dredge them up during a fight?
And if someone fell asleep on you while you were talking � deal-breaker or what?
