bit of history.
my husband and i started trying to conceive almost 10 years ago. over the years, we found out he is fine, but i have graves disease (treated in 1999), mild endometriosis (surgery 2002, 2003, 2006) and chronic uterine infection (dx and treated 2006). my tubes and ovaries are perfect, i ovulate every month, i have wonderful hormone levels and follicle counts. actually, my body thinks it's much younger than 35. so according to the dr's i'm super-fertile. but i've never been able to have a kid. the latest RE we saw in july said the uterine infection is the cause of the pain and infertility. i saw him for closure because we wanted to do ivf, then we ended up spending the money we had for it on car repairs. and then it really came to a point where jeff was completely done. no more. if it happens naturally, then it was meant to be. but he's tired of it.
i needed closure though. and i needed a reason for all this. so the last RE saw me earlier this month. he did a biopsy of my uterus, and it came back positive for infection like he figured it would. we treated it, and i had another biopsy wednesday to make sure it's better now. he doesn't know if there's permanent damage to my uterus or not though. so he still doesn't seem to think we are candidates for ivf. he said to try on our own if we're emotionally up for it (not sure if we are or not) for 3-6 months. if it's going to happen it should happen in that timeframe after treating this infection.
so i'm sort of here, but i'm not sure really. i want to try, but at the same time i'm so tired of being hurt by all this. and i'm at peace with life. i'm happy to have an answer to everything. and it seems like treating the infection has helped a great deal with the physical pain i was having.
but even if we don't try, i'd like to support those of you who are trying and struggling with infertility. if that's all right. it's the biggest beating in the world to have to endure, and so few people understand. i'm at the point now where life will probably be fine either way. but it took so many years to come to this realization. and now i'm just trying not to get my hopes up. but it's hard to stay grounded.
anyway, i'd like to help if i can. i've been through all the tests and most of the procedures (we didn't do ivf, and it seems like if we had it would have been a waste of effort considering the latest dx). if i could offer any insight or advice, i'd like to. i understand though if it's not welcome. after all, we never succeeded.
(((((hugs))))) to all.
