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Hi, everyone!

I am really stumped on this one and I need help!

I had a dream last night, very vivid, that I had a brain tumor and was getting ready to take radiation. I was lying on a bed in a cabin? in the woods with my husband. Our bed was in the middle of the room, but off behind my husband was a sliding glass door and it was snowing outside and there was snow all over the ground and the pine trees. Anyway, the last thing that happened was my husband and I were lying down, he was holding me, and I looked up at him and said, "I'm going to die, aren't I?" Then I woke up.

Quick background info - my dad died in 11/2005 of extensive small cell carcinoma (originated in lung, spread to other lung, lymph nodes, and eventually the brain - he took radiation as well as chemo). My brother died in February of this year - accidental overdose.

I have had 2 dreams in the past where I have dreamed of family members dying and 2 weeks later, those family members died. One was an aunt and another a cousin. I saw in those dreams the relatives laid out in the casket, right down to the clothes, and with my aunt, I even dreamed tha she died of a heart attack, and they came true (and no, I didn't aid in picking out their clothing, they weren't sick - both were unexpected deaths).

Anyway, I don't think I have a brain tumor, but I can't figure this dream out! Can anyone help, please? Thanks in advance for any input.

Sometimes dreams are just our subconscious dealing with fears our conscious mind is not dealing with during the day.

The other, I think we all have some psychic ability, most of us just do not know how to work it. Yours could just be coming out in your dreams just like working out your fears.

I think Skinnydipr is right. We process subconscious fears in our dreams & you have had these experiences to live through. Don't dwell on this one, I don't think it is prophetic, however some bereavement counselling might do you good if you haven't already had some help.

Thanks! I was really freaked out by it when I woke up, but by evening yesterday, I had almost forgotten about it. I just felt such strong emotion right before I woke up...this huge sense of sadness because I knew I was going to die (in the dream). But, yes, with what I have been through over the past 2 years, that type of dream really doesn't surprise me.

Lauren, I've actually been in counseling for quite some time and seemed to have been doing really well until some events happened the week before last, so I bet it had something to do with that situation.

I'm glad you've been getting some help Jennifer. Too many people just go it alone & bottle things up...then later they get ill. Sounds like the dream was just processing. If you feel sad again let yourself have a good cry & come & share in the Editor's forum if you need someone to talk to about things.

Jennifer,

I have found that while in counseling, the farther I get, and the more progress I make - the worse my dreams get!

I know that sounds horrid and not very promising, but it is actually a good thing. Since our dreams are our subconsious working out our fears and buried thoughts for us (in my case a rape).

Take heart- the worse your dreams get, it usually means the closer you are in the waking world to coming to a reconciliation with your grief and rage. And you have had a lot of it to deal with.

Your dream may have been you trying to shy away from facing some of these harsh truths in reality. Let's face it, if you were to have a brain tumor, no-one would force you to deal with much other stress, would they? And death is certainly an escape. Right now, depp down inside, these may seem like the easier options, than the going on does.

But you are a strong woman, and the counseling is going to help you. Just give it time. Even with all the other things that life throws in our way (lately I've known a lot about that! <img src="/images/graemlins/smirk.gif" alt="" />)

As Lauren would say {{{Hugs}}} <img src="/images/graemlins/heart.gif" alt="" />

Jen, after all you have gone through, in such a short time, it is not unreasonable to wonder (subconsciously) who is next? Having prophetic dreams myself, any time I have a dream I am not real thrilled about, I wake up and start worrying "how soon before this one unfolds, today, tomorrow?". Luckily the ones I worry about do not come true. (yet) Knock on wood. I will post a dream I had the other night, one I feel stems directly from a fear I have. I try not to worry about it while I am awake, but it surfaced as I slept. Probably the same with you. Keep hanging in there. <img src="/images/graemlins/rolling.gif" alt="" />

The brain tumor represents an idea that is growing on you, becoming a bigger issue and thus seemingly more important to you. It suggests an idea that is causing some emotional dis-ease or uneasiness. Here this affects the brain, i.e. affects your ability to think logically or rationally. The body (the emotional nature) was not designed to carry the idea growing upon you. You need to get ready to accept an idea (the radiation) that can destroy the idea that has been growing on you.

The cabin in the woods implies using a mental attitude that is rather simplistic or rustic in nature. It implies a lack of sophistication; not taking into account all the complexities of a situation such as a more experienced individual might. It is in this context that you are resting very at ease. (lying on a bed) Your husband, being a male, represents your mind in total. Thus the scene suggests that you could see yourself using all your mental ability when resting very at ease with a rather simplistic mental attitude.

The husband can also reflect the idea of �the marriage� and a marital issue. A bed with a husband and wife in it can refer to marital sex. A bed placed in the middle of the room makes a sexual issue the central or main issue. Thus the previous comments and those that follow can pertain also to this issue. {There is usually more than one issue a dream refers to.}

When looking past or beyond a way of thinking that you are very at ease with (off behind my husband) there is an opportunity to see reality truthfully (glass door). In reality (outside) there appears to be some negative emotional fallout � both from your own higher consciousness/greater intelligence as well as from the husband. (snowing) Snow all over the ground would simply imply a situation is cold or negative. This seems to apply particularly where a simplistic mental attitude is being used. (snowing in the cabin area) Negative thinking seems to pertain also to knowledge (snow on trees) that relates to eternal life (pine trees are �evergreens�) or simply to spiritual and psychological knowledge.

While you might feel loved or secure (husband holding me) and very at ease (lying down) with the thinking of your own mind, the True Self is prepared for impending emotional devastation (I�m going to die) in relation to the idea growing upon you. The idea growing upon you is obviously not one that gives you great benefits (as we usually expect tumors to cause death) {Personally, I would see this dream in part as a further confirmation of the idea brought out in the dream, �Why Can�t I Dream of Him?�. Also, is your thinking about marital sex too simplistic? Women are usually satisfied with �holding� � but is your husband? Could this be an issue?}

WOW, Eliz! Do you do this for a living? I am thorougly impressed with your analysis!

No, I'm not satisfied with holding and neither is my husband...LOL! Our sex life is fine, though. Actually, better than fine, so I don't think it's that.

But I do think that this particular dream may have had something to do with the other "Why Can't I Dream of Him?" I think there is definitely some connection.

Thanks!