Dear loong, Thank you for your reply and honesty and concern. When I say back on the mental health wagon, I mean I have returned to working in a positive way to stay mentally healthy, instead of falling into despair and giving up. I know that some days my defenses will fall, but after reaching some success at happiness, it is hard to go backward and even frightful to think of a complete breakdown again. I too have suffered through official nervous breakdowns and am diagnosed with major chronic depression and anxiety. I don't believe your question is too private in this particular forum and that we are all here to help each other. And I know from your reply that you are truly one who understands. Only if one has encountered mental disease as we have can one truly understand. Again, thank you. I am very open to more discussion. Ruby June

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