It took about 25yrs. but I now have a combination that keeps me on an even keel:
Morning:
800mg of Gapipentin Neurotin <sp>
50mg of Zoloft -- strange thing about this med is that the formula in 100mg is more effective than the 50mg dose, so I get the 100's and break them in half. Go figure.
30mg of Buspar.
Throughout the day:
Buspar 30mg. as needed.. sometimes up to 3 and 4 doses after the initial morning med.
Just before bed:
100mg of Serequl <sp>
Sometimes 30mg of Restoril. 1960's era of sleeping pill.
Can't mix the Serequel and the Restroil because they are both sedative.
No libido, but I like to stay sane and peacefully happy inside.
If I don't take my meds, I end up driving Connie crazy by reliving and reviving the past with fanciful coulda shoulda wouldas and if this then that would have been better.
I'm mentally ill.
Took a quarter of a century.. but hey, I'm here and doin' the best I can with what I got.
It's good to be alive.
